PS Writings

So, this is my first post. I don’t know why I am writing this despite knowing the fact that you might never read it anyway or you may, some day, some time. But you know what, it really isn’t important to me because nothing is going to change anyways besides, we both would embarrass each other. Life has changed so much since then – since the time we met and since the time we parted ways. And while those beautiful days are over – it’s been 15 long years – and we are no more the same, our life, circumstances and priorities are no more the same – I am a wife and a mother of two beautiful kids and I know you would be doing great with your family too, I cannot help but wonder how life would have been if we were together in another world – YOU & ME in ALTERNATE UNIVERSE.

And when I start to think about it, there are a lot of things about us that I would want to change, except for that one moment – jab we met, or better to say ‘when our eyes met’. A rainy day. August 2008. I don’t remember the date or much details because I never thought that it would be so important for me some day in my life. For me, it was an ordinary monsoon day.

Well, taking a lil’ break from my emotional self, I want to mention that love stories that begin in Monsoon are the most beautiful ones. This is what I believe. I don’t know if all of them end tragically like mine, but yes, rain is an important element if you want to fall in love. ROFL.

So, in one part of my hometown were these chains of coaching centers and of course, some students are really ambitious and join these centers believing that they would reach greater heights one day, others come just to save their sinking ships. Me? Well, honestly, I was a very good student till matric. In fact, I was merit. But that’s a different story altogether. While I excelled academically, my life was a complete turmoil. My monotonous life became a real fun when I entered +1 and met with Alice, a chic girl who migrated to my school from another and became friends with me. She happened to be in my Physics coaching as well, and while I had no interest in Physics and I had no interest in doing non-medical even, I joined this coaching center. It was just an escape, a breath of fresh air away from the suffocating atmosphere of my home.

Now, there is so much I could talk about Alice. I still miss those days and the time I spent with her. But coming back to the point – Alice and I were soon joined by another girl, Nancy, who had also transferred and we were a trio of fun and blast. We’d ride around on Alice’s scoot before and after our coaching classes, munching on chaat, sharing stories, secrets and creating countless memories.

Nancy was a silly girl who fell for someone blindly, only to be heartbroken when he dumped her. Despite everything, she was still crazy for him. I really felt sorry for her. Since she couldn’t stop talking about him, I naively suggested her to form a fake romantic relationship with his ex’s cousin to make him jealous. How silly of me too!! ROFL. The irony of life? That cousin was the boy I was ultimately going to fall in love with.

Am I a cheater who put eyes on my friend’s BF, made up though? Well, no! Because he was the first to make the move.

Coming to the story, I had never seen him before but Nancy told me that he also comes to the same study center. So, on that rainy day, I asked her to show me who he is – just out of curiosity.

So, the seating was divided – girls on one side and boys on the other, separated by a clear aisle yet aligned in the same rows. That day, we three sat in the first row on the girl’s side, while he was seated directly across from us on the boys’ side, in the same row. While the professor’s physics lecture was going on and I grew bored, Nina nudged me and whispered that he was sitting in the front row, third from the left. About ten students used to sit in one row. Curious, I leaned forward from my chair to get a look at him, and there he was – a charming, innocent looking boy, quietly listening to the lecture while casually resting his feet on the professor’s elevated platform.  

It was that beautiful moment – just like how it happens in romantic movies – our eyes met as he also suddenly saw me looking at him – a fleeting, unspoken connection marked the beginning of everything. Embarrassed, I quickly leaned back. That brief exchange of glances is the moment I can never forget and it keeps coming to my mind over and over because it feels so pure and divine – god’s perfect plan to bring him into my lifeless life. Well, I can live this moment in loop and never get tired of it. How funny and sad of me! Isn’t it?

In the alternate universe, I would like this moment to be the exact same because it makes me fall in love with my life. I really don’t remember what happened next that day but this moment I will cherish forever -both in this world and another! And if ‘You’ are reading this, I just want to say ‘Thank you’! Thank you for coming to my life and standing by me through the times of sadness, through the times of happiness, through the times when I was in my worst self, and through the times when I needed you the most! Thank you ‘You’!